KC. i want you NOW NA.
POSTED AT 09:51 AM

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i've been really tamad to update lately, which is funny coz i've had lots of time online and i've even uploaded 4 (5?) albums over the past couple of days..

the great thing about last week, and even this week, is that im super fine with school. not that much deadlines to panic for, the workload is so-so, and im very, very relaxed. (for a college senior, i think thats a bit strange though haha)

the bad thing about these easy going weeks is that.. its sort of like an omen of bad things to come. haha, no naman sana... but its like the calm before the storm. i expect to write about stress, heavy acads, and deadlines in about a week.

oihaefambfadsf. oh well, thats life.

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i was watching the tyra show a few days ago, and daaaaaaaaaamn. columbus short, ne-yo and chris brown were on it, and they were teaching tyra how to step. putaaaaaaaanginaaaaa. (sorry, just had to curse) I WANNA BE ABLE TO DANCE LIKE THAT! not to be mayabang or anything, but it looks easy naman. it actually looks like those clap dances we used to do back in high school.. (yes, high school cheerleading was way ahead of its time haha) but, i swear, i'd give anything to be able to dance with those guys. or no naman, maybe just to dance on one of those shows

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ree and i were chatting the other night, and reminiscing our boracay moments... we were even compelled to look at old multiply albums haha. anoooo ba. summer seems so far away..

and karl, if youre reading this, i vote we buy new bikinis soon. gotta get ready for summer 2008! hello, graduates? haha. and ito na talaga, say it with me: NON-NEGOTIABLE.

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i was reading vicky's lj and i found out that shia lebouf is dating rihanna! im so saaaaaaaaaad. i love shia lebouf. especially now that he outgrew his totoy 'even stevens' look.

and why RIHANNA? sexy ka na, but heeeeelllo naman. thats it. haha  

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one of my favorite pasttimes (simple joys?) is looking at the billboards along edsa, especially the ones that are HUMUNGOUS. and the new ones that just seem to appear. i mean, they werent there naman the day before, and i should know because i go to makati EVERYDAY and i go home to qc EVERYDAY too. i pay attention. when do those billboard people put it up? at night? okay, i'll stop now. i dont really need to know haha..

my favorite billboards to date are:

• the hot little boys of big and small co. (that maki and i used to droooooool over back in high school)
• the dove billboard of the semi-chubby girl (with the numbers on it, that 'changed' as people voted)
• the coke summer billboard (with ace! haha, we'd always look for her everytime we'd pass)
• anything with george on it (kabarkada ko yan! hahaha)

the most memorable billboard though would have to be.. the heart evangelista just g billboard. this was circa 2004 pa. we werent a couple yet, and everytime we'd pass it, he'd SUPER STARE. as in, you couldnt even talk to him. and then (okay, this is where it gets mushy), when he was already making pacute to me (ahem summer 04!), we passed the billboard and i notice he wasnt staring at it like he always does. so, i pointed it out to him, and then he says to me (with matching eye contact), 'i dont have to look at that billboard anymore'.

WAHAHAHAHAHA. BENTA.

and the beeeest billboard ever is... the kelly misa motorola billboard. she's super hot there, especially in the gold one. cholo and i have a mutual crush on kelly misa. our deal is that the first brand new car he buys, he'll name kelly. actually, he wanted our first daughter to be named kelly, but malamang i put my foot down noh haha :D

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(in semi-connection to the last entry) cholo and i have been arguing for the longest time on who had a crush on the other one first. he insists it was me, when i know for a fact that he started liking me before i started liking him.

and yes, this debate has been going on for the past 3 years.

until...

finally, he admitted that he liked me first. HA! april 2004, to be exact. when he asked me to be his cotillion partner for diane's debut (when i already had a partner!)

i even have it recorded thats something i wont erase.

so next time we fight, im whipping out my phone and making him listen to it

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last weeked was SUPER FUN. i love how i live for the weekends. no matter how long the week may seem, and even if i have saturday morning classes, my weekends are still the best.

saturday, i had learning in the morning. it was actually cuttable, since the prof just let us do our proposal revisions. but since i was already there, i didnt think of leaving na. olivia and i had fun playing cake nalang haha oh, and lets not forget gloria diaz's P5 and P10  garage sale!

after class, cholo picked me up and we had lunch in makati. then, i went with him to school for his case presentation. i was the sit-in from another school it was fun being there for his group defense, and i even learned something about colon cancer! haha. i love going with him to school coz he introduces me to everyone, even the profs, principal, etc. and its also fun seeing his classmates that i super like and get along with. i even saw relee! yeay

their defense took around 3 hours, and they even had a quiz after (while i watched haha). then we went to trinoma. i looooove that mall. yes, its magulo and the crowd is a bit.. yeah. but the stores are great! i love the selection.. its like our very own mall of asia in quezon city haha. aaaaaaaand. i found stuff im currently obsessing about two things actually. one's the mark ecko red and white sneakers (and i dont like wearing rubber shoes!) and the other is the black roxy jacket.....

its gotten so bad that i cant sleep just thinking about it. haha. i'll be getting the sneakers for sure though. its weird, i dont even like wearing rubber shoes! but its soooooo pretty, EXAG. and jojo's the model of mark ecko! cool, i love jojo

after walking around and feeling bad that we couldnt get the shoes (haha), we decided to go have dinner in... MISTER KABAB. oh wow, thats my new favorite shawarma place. and its SUPER CHEAP. and we were super stuffed afterwards, we couldnt even stand up anymore haha. we had to wait for like 20minutes before we could leave

sunday, i spent with mommy and camille. doing something we do best. SHOPPING. i've been shopping deprived the past few weeks, so i had to make up for lost time plus my mom was there and that means.. i didnt have to spend for anything. so yeah, that was a good shopping day. i looooove.

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is anyone intrigued by my journal entry title?

wait for it. KC's coming reeeeeaaaaal soon.

im so excited, i even dreamt of it last night haha. ONE MORE MONTH!

its been a long time coming. FINALLY.

PISSED.
POSTED AT 12:37 PM

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out of my own EXTREME stupidity, i accidentally deleted ALL the messages in my phone's inbox.

thankfully, the more important messages, and those that are really special to me are saved in folders. BUT that's still 250+ messages GONE .. in one moment of careless stupidity.

NICE ONE, TUMS.

Currently reading: the debutante divorcee
Currently feeling: grumpy

kelly high!
POSTED AT 04:48 PM

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kc is now kelly.

just because she's tooooooo pretty.

tums is happy.

and wants to camwhore NOW.

hahahahahaha

the best friendster profiles EVER! (stolen)
POSTED AT 04:34 PM

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i just had to repost this, because when i read it, i was literally tearing from laughing sooooooo hard.  stolen from steph (http://avesmo.multiply.com/journal/item/8)

GRABE TALAGA. some people are EXTREMELY... dumb? i dont know. haha, i'd like to add a few of my own friendsters' profiles, but hey, i dont wanna start a fight or anything lets just say i know one or two people whose profiles are worthy of being called.. winners. hahahaha :D  

(get ready!)

POSTED AT 08:30 PM

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BUTTERFLY KISSES

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from Heaven and she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
'Walk beside the pony daddy, it's my first ride',
'I know the cake looks funny daddy but i sure tried'
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
TO deseve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin like her mama a little more every day
One part woman, the other part girl
To perfume and make up, from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world, but I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
'You know how much I love you daddy but if you don't mind,
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time'
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning and butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time, like the wind the years go by
Precious Butterfly, spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today, she'll make a promise and I'll give her away
Standing in the bride room just starin at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin and I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl
And she leaned over

And gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin little white flowers all up in her hair
'Walk me down the aisle daddy, it's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy? Daddy, don't cry'
Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin and butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask GOd for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses

update, update!
POSTED AT 10:19 AM

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(been gone from the tabulas world for 7 days. here's my doozy of an update.)

6:23am
POSTED AT 06:24 AM

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realization while finishing my 'girl, interrupted' paper for my abnormal psych class --

THE WEEKEND IS HERE AGAIN.

and even better....

SEM BREAK IS THREE WEEKS AWAY!!!!!

karl, beach? please??

barkada, road trip? please???

pocholo, shopping? hahahaha

POSTED AT 10:29 PM

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we watched 'a beautiful mind' for my abnormal psychology class today and can i just say that: yes, it still is as boring as i remember it to be, back when i first watched it. and, take note, that time that i did watch it, i didnt even bother finishing it. but because of my 4 years of psychology (whoa.), i can now appreciate the storyline, the character of john nash and his sickness.

schizophrenia is scary. of all the mental illnesses we've taken up, its the one illness i'd prefer NOT to have, experience, or encounter at all. most of the patients at ncmh are schizophrenics so there you go, right? but in the movie, i liked how they didnt sugarcoat the mental illness, and even more, i liked that they didnt end the movie with john nash miraculously cured. in the end, he still had his delusions-slash-imaginary-friends there. and that was after several years of medication and electroshock therapy and all.

it was so disturbing how he believed his delusions and hallucinations to be true. and how he lived for years, thinking that these other people were real when in fact, they were just figments of his imagination. even his best friend turned out to be just a hallucination!

but, as in all stories, his wife saves the day. i dont know what i would do if i were in alicia's (his wife's) position. i mean, she had an option to leave him. hello, he almost killed their baby! and taking care of him through his illness was probably HELL for her. and jennifer connelly's a babe, she couldve gotten any other guy she wanted. galing though that she stayed. thats LOVE, right there. for better or for worse, definitely. and in true girl power fashion, she managed to keep her husband's illness at bay, encourage him to go back to Princeton, and in the end, he got a Nobel Prize. all thanks to her.

where would men be without their women???? TELL ME! haha. tsk tsk. guess that just goes to show that we can live without them, but they cant live without us!

i cant say for certain if movies just paint a pretty picture of it, but mental institutions in the States seem so well equipped and adequate. like the ones shown in 'a beautiful mind', 'girl, interrupted', and yes, even in that n sync video where theyre insane kunyari. if only our government wasnt as corrupt as they are, then our taxes could go to rehabilitating ncmh. we probably have the WORST and DIRTIEST mental institution in the world. add to that the fact that they scrimp on medicine, food and supplies for the patients. we were told that for each patient, only P120 (or sometimes even less) is spent for their food daily. that covers their breakfast, lunch and dinner. how can you properly feed someone on that little an amount? no wonder the patients are malnourished. and dont even get me started on their medicine budget. THAT'S why they dont get better.

i'm a psych major but my emphasis is industrial which means i wont be working in hospitals, or guidance offices, or mental institutions. right now, i honestly dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing. its just a heavy feeling thinking that i cant do anything to help. right now, that is.

just wait till i make my first million..

friday freeday.
POSTED AT 03:40 PM

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our 'ateneo field trip day' started out with breakfast at mcdonalds slash krispy kreme in greenhills. haha, originally we were okay na in mcdo, but pocholo was insisting we transfer, so there. then we got a call from ree, that everyone was expecting us daw coz our 'ateneo trip' plan was leaked. yes friends, cholo and i are celebrity status na! haha :D it was super funny nga, we were like, 'bet tayo pati si chris andon!' and lo and behold, chris was there nga din. royal family reunion at ateneo haha

we were getting texts from karla and tessa to go to this place, and this was how you get there, etc. but hello naman, WE ARENT FROM ATENEO. so if you tell us to pass here, and this is beside this building, we have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA what youre talking about. thank God chris knew his way around. haha, or else we'd have met up with tessa at mga 1pm pa!

the original plan was a: (get ready for some mush) tums+cholo tim+tessa double date (whoohoo!). but, because of the presence of everyone else, we had a long table of lotsa different people. which was fun too. but we didnt get to interrogate tim as much as we wanted to.. tessa got grilled by mikko, etc though so at least may konting excitement haha and thankfully we got to sorta catch up naman on kuwentos, etc. and we people watched, and people spotted. GIVE IT UP, i won the cholo-tums game!! daming assumptionistas in ateneo, exag.

even saw caloy, which was good coz the last time i saw him was my birthday pa! more field trips like this should be planned

yeay, im happy tessa's haaaaappppyy :D and i approve! cholo does too! so its all good haha

barkada dinner tonight! and lotsa other stuff coming up this weekend. i will upload by tuesday, promise lets go, kelly! battery endurance test na 'to hahaha

and this is why he's my new favorite:
POSTED AT 09:25 AM

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http://timischinese.multiply.com/photos/album/3/

what a cutie haha. i love my best friends' boys.

off to the mountains!
POSTED AT 05:47 PM

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..will be gone till sunday.

wish me luck! hopefully i will come back insect bite-free, bacteria-free, with all my body parts and functions intact, and most importantly, ALIVE. haha

damn im dreading this.

the breakup diaries by maya calica
POSTED AT 06:34 PM

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'Has anybody seen my self esteem?

Now that Itos, the guy I've been thinking about/breathing for every waking hour of this past year has told me, "This isnt working." Like our relationship was the windup toy that came with his Happy Meal - the hopping hamburger he was so aliw with in the beginning. When it suddenly refused to walk/jump/roll, he didnt want it anymore.'

'Do you realize the word "men" is at the start of words like "menace", "mental" and "menial"? And when spelled backwards (for that is what most men are like, anyway) they form half of "enemy" and "nemesis"?

No wonder they cause so much pain.'

so true! haha boys are eeeeeevil. most boys, at least.

just because i miss these kinds of surveys
POSTED AT 10:01 PM

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..and the weird thing is, im pretty sure i've already answered this survey before. haha. BOREDOOOOM. and to think im getting up early tomorrow! oh well. i will sleep once pocholo gets home

Seven things that scare me:
01 REJECTION.
02 not getting the required cut-off grade for abnormal psychology
03 MR. MAGCASE hahahahaha. right hash??
04 not getting the required cut-off grade for hrm
05 RATS
06 disappointing the people i love most
07 cholo's tita..

Seven things I like the most:
01 spending time with the people i love
02 dancing and performing
03 interesting conversations
04 taking pictures
05 my family and friends
06 chocolates (just not white and dark)
07 my baby

Seven random facts about me:
01 i have semi-photographic memory. like i remember EVERYTHING from where i ate on this certain day, what this person was wearing, what was mentioned, said, discussed, etc. but put it in the context of school and my mind draws a blank. haha, how useful is that?
02 i'd rather be SUPER cold than be sweating like a pig. i hate the heat, especially when its the sticky kind of heat.
03 when i eat alone, i have to be reading.
04 you know i like you/am comfortable with you when i cant shut up. otherwise, we'll have those awkward periods of silence.
05 i cant stand still. i fidget. i point my toes, stretch them, do arabesques, tendous (sp?!) and plies. haha
06 im the worst person to watch tv with because i channel surf like crazy. i dont even stay on one channel long enough for you to see whats on. what can i say, i get bored easily..
07 i hate posers. yes, YOU. ahem.

Seven important things in my bedroom:
01 ALLLLLLL my diaries
02 my bed
03 b.b., the pillow cholo gave me for my 18th birthday
04 ALL MY CLOTHES. haha
05 my letter boxes
06 my ten million books
07 ummm... i cant think of anything else. im not particularly attached to my room..

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
01 LEARN HOW TO SWIM. ano ba, this is bordering on pathetic!
02 travel the world
03 have a good marriage
04 have a family
05 have a good career
06 meet kaka (ohhhh yes.)
07 save someone's life

Seven things I can do:
01 dance well. (oo na, mayabang na....)
02 speak in public (well, i hope.)
03 speed-read
04 argue my way out of a problem/crisis/etc
05 pretend im perfectly fine when im really mad or depressed
06 mix and match clothes
07 tell when jewelry is fake

Seven things I can’t do:
01 SING.
02 keep good, juicy chismis to myself.
03 whistle
04 SWIIIIIM
05 commute alone (like im even allowed to!)
06 stay mad at someone i love
07 like someone/ be friendly with a person when i REAAAALLY hate their guts.

Seven things that attract me to the opposite sex:
01 if youre moreno, have chubby cheeks, and answer to the name of 'pocholo miguel'. haha
02 that clean smell (not the 'i just poured perfume on' smell that suffocates you)
03 gentleman-ly
04 a guy who i can REALLY talk to
05 someone who can make me laugh
06 someone who i can pray with
07 number one says it all :D

Seven things I say the most:
01 oh my gosh.
02 i wanna die.
03 hello.
04 eeeeew.
05 are you serious??
06 ano ba..
07 whatever.

Seven crushes (whether local or foreign or nonexistent):
01 kaka
02 david beckham
03 usher
04 paolo paraiso (hahaha you shouldve seen me when i met him!)
05 pocholo
06 pocholo
07 pocholo (he will kill me when he reads this and sees there are four other guys in this list)

Currently listening to: i'm still here - vertical horizon