random kuwentos i forgot to blog about
POSTED AT 07:44 PM

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so, in my pagkabusy these past few weeks, i havent really made kuwento much.. at least not like before when my usual, random kuwentos would pretty much take up most of my journal entries.

BUT because i'm uploading and waiting for the 400+ pictures (no kidding!!) of sofia's debut to be posted on multiply, i figure i have enough time to update. haha :D right?

so, the past few weeks in school have been okay. yes, im settled, we all are. our professors are okay. and we've learned to deal with, and entertain ourselves during, our very, very long 5-hour breaks. okay, so we waste so much money eating and going back and forth to glorietta, but thats better than just staying at the library right?

a really cute kuwento: around two weeks ago, the pre-school/grade school department had a literary parade thingie that we got to watch. and yes, i was reminded of the 9 years (kinder-grade 7) of parade torture we had to endure in assumption, when the teachers would make us go all around campus to show off our costumes. all around campus meant through the grade school, high school and college buildings, and even to the nuns. just so everyone could see us in full battle gear. AND if that wasnt enough, it wasnt a once a year thing. oh no, ac thought of all possible occasions to have us come to school in costume. linggo ng wika, united nations week, shakespeare fest, etc. im so serious. theyre sadists, i tell you.

okay, back to my kuwento. so around two weeks ago, hash, angge and i were coming back from the cafeteria and the kiddies were parading in their pretty (and expensive looking) costumes. the funny thing was, it was like a 'literary characters' parade, so im assuming that was for english week? reading week? i have no idea. trust the school to think up a new celebration for them. the kids looked like they were enjoying though, and they definitely looked like their moms dressed them up. stage mothers at that, obviously. each of them paraded in costume, and they also had nametags saying who they were. also, they were carrying the book that their character was in.

so we saw our share of Disney-slash-fairy tale princesses: snow white, sleeping beauty, cinderella. there was also thumbelina and countless fairies. signs of the times though, because gabriella montez was represented. and there were also numerous hannah montanas, nancy drews, hermiones and amelia bedelias.

cute i can imagine those kids' moms going all out and dressing their daughters up, doing their make-up and taking them shopping.

another random kuwento - i was waiting for the glorietta shuttle in school one time, and overheard this really hilarious conversation..

girl to her friends: hay naku. susulat ako sa mcdonalds.. sa pinakia main branch. dapat hanggang 12noon na yung sausage mcmuffin nila! biruin mo hanggang 10 lang siya.. paano naman yung mga late gumigising?

okay, maybe you had to be there to find this funny. but i was literally tawang tawa, and trying hard not to laugh out loud. she sounded so.. enraged. and like she was really serious.

gotta love assumptionistas

anyway, im still adjusting to training again, and trying not to slack off and be tamad to study or anything. its hard, considering i get home late and im dead tired when i do.. also, my body still hurts alot from being extremely streeeeetched. like my hamstrings. its funny coz beebop, coco and i walk the same way in school now. we can barely get our legs to move, and we just sorta drag it along haha okay, its not funny coz its painful but im having a lot of fun with my teammates. and im back to being active and cheer-y. so yeah, im one happy little girl.

POSTED AT 12:20 AM

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is there anything more amazing than women's intuition?

take that feeling you get when you meet someone for the first time. everytime i make kuwento to cholo that i met someone and just didnt feel 'okay' about that person, he shrugs it off as kaartehan or whatever on my part. but i insist that the person just gives me the heebie jeebies, or that they just dont seem.. like the type of person we should be hanging out with. AND THEN that person does something that confirms my first impression of him/her! and in the same way, there are just some people that, when i met for the first time, i thought to myself 'this person's gonna be someone in my life'.. and true enough, they do become people that i cant imagine myself without!

haha did that make sense? its totally true. well, at least for me.

like when i met ___. i felt like i HAD to try and get along with that person, etc. and here i am, years later, still finding it hard to find common ground with him/her. i find the idea of being left in a room with him/her revolting. please lang, never AGAIN. haaaaaay. tessa, you know this! hahaha

so. hennniiiiwaaaaay. where was i? oh yeah, women's intuition.

i guess its also the same with plans and parties, etc. there are some that you already KNOW in your gut arent meant to push through. but, you force it anyway. and what do you get? instant regret. a week later and you wish you'd never gone. that you shouldve just LISTENED and nagpahimuyong ka nalang dapat.

hayayayay.

so, today, i was having the crappiest day topped off with the worst mood swings and brat attacks. and pocholo kept asking me, 'whats wrong ba?' etc etc which prompted me to be EVEN MORE BAD MOOD. haha. soooooory babe. and, take note, i was fully conscious of all this.

and then, just tonight, i realized that this was all a result of.. my period coming early. okay, oversharing much?? BUT, there ya go right? i mean, bottom line really is that: our hormones are always to blame. for everything.

thank god boys cant use that excuse.

14 days to go.
POSTED AT 09:20 PM

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in the spirit of the season, i watched The Holiday on video today.

side kuwento: cholo and i were talking yesterday, and apart from the fact that my house is loaded with Christmas decorations (because we do live with a Christmas-obsessed woman named Cecilia), and we've been gift shopping these past few days, i DO NOT feel the Christmas spirit. AT ALL. and i remember saying to him 'Christmas really is for the kids', and he was super adamant that it isnt. haha, defensive much?

anyway, back to the movie. so i watched it for the second time today, because the first time i got the chance to see it, i thought it was boring and didnt even get past the first ten minutes.

but for lack of something better to do, i decided to finish it this time. and it left me with an 'awww, i wish i lived in a snowy place so i could really, truly feel Christmas' feeling. sad, i know.

and it was funny because they really played up the whole 'finding love at Christmas' scenario. which was sweet and cutesy, like how movies should be. but is it REALLY a crime to be alone during the holidays? i mean, does it make you less of a person if you happen to be single at Christmas and malamig ang yong Pasko?

i dont think so. because back when i was single, i didnt find anything wrong with my status haha. and i never felt 'empty' or feel like i wanted to just cry my eyes out, etc. i was perfectly fine, come to think of it.

of course, in the movie, they had their hearts broken just in time for the holidays. which may be the reason why they were all miserable and depressed and hopeless.

but, as i've learned in my course, depression is a choice. and more than that, its a psychological disorder. so yeah, you can choose to be all mopey and destroyed when you get your heart broken. BUT you can also smile through your pain and get on with your life.

haha. i just realized that my entry started out with me talking about Christmas and then i end it with being depressed, etc. laboooooo.

p.s.
can i just share that i had the BEST training day (so far) yesterday. we learned new choreography thats EXTREMELY HOT. i swear, pussycat dolls routine material. combined with semi-modern ballet steps and cheerleading moves too. shiiiiiit. i love it. i want to die haha. cant wait for tomorrow's training! whoo hoo, thats a first, super looking forward to physical pain  

Currently listening to: jon mclaughlin - so close

NIIIIIICE.
POSTED AT 09:41 AM

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see you in two weeks Currently feeling: depressed

11 to go? cmon Jess....
POSTED AT 08:31 PM

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a basic summary for days 1-3 would be:

sbarro
kfc
bun on the run and tosh

yes, pocholo and i have been patronizing fast food deliveries, its craaaaaazy.

the way i've been itching is pretty crazy too. :/ :S

Currently feeling: uncomfortable

POSTED AT 10:31 AM

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ella, when i see you, i think i may have to kill you.

aiosudbfjhabsdf.

whoever said that its better to give than to receive was SO RIGHT.

day four/five and still depressed

Currently feeling: irritated

POSTED AT 02:29 PM

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when pocholo becomes a hotshot doctor (say in around, 10 years or so), i will fully make sure that he finds out why certain medicine/ointments etc are made SO TINY. i mean, cant they just already make like a HUGE one, and spare you the hassle of having to drag yourself to mercury drug to buy MORE?? if there can be family-sized toothpaste tubes that last you weeks, and huge mayonnaise canisters that you shove in the back of your refrigerators and eventually forget about, then im sure they can come up with industrial sized tubes of acyclovir ointment hahaha.

or, i know! maybe its because its so expensive that if they DID make big, family-sized quantities, then the price alone would be enough to kill you altogether.

damn, i have too much time on my hands. even this i end up blogging about. SHEEEEEEESH.

Currently feeling: blank

POSTED AT 02:31 PM

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i just realized that in the history of.. well, basta in the past three/four years, this is the FIRST TIME that i will not be camwhoring for two weeks straight.

how's that for a record?? ha!!

AND (im so sure) people on multiply will probably be wondering what the hell happened to me, why i'm not uploading, etc.

WEEELLLL, try being chickee like me and see how cam-happy you be.

Currently listening to: j. holiday - suffocate
Currently feeling: gloomy

POSTED AT 02:38 PM

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four entries, all in a day. DAAAAAAYM.

what made my sunday was watching that john lloyd-bea movie about them first seeing each other on the mrt, and bea's like this talkative, clingy girlfriend. and john lloyd's just like closed off from everything.

i dragged cholo to watch that over three years ago, and we were barely like two months together hahaha. hows this for reminiscing the good old days?

im seriously running out of things to do. tomorrow, im considering pulling out all my old copies of Seventeen, Teen, YM and all those other American teen magazines, and going over ideas of what to wear for my Europe trip.. at least, thats something i can look forward to!!

its so hard to find something to be excited about. and no, im not feeling scrooge-y, just very, very itchy.

its really ironic how i cant seem to find things to do but on the flip side, i know that work is piling up and i have so much i need to make habol, come January. there's school work, thesis work plus choreography and the upcoming competition.

dont mind me, im probably not making much sense anyway haha.

Currently feeling: cranky

for lack of anything better to do...
POSTED AT 02:54 PM

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MY CHRISTMAS WISHLIST
(hello pocholo! barkada! friends! family! blockmates, classmates, teammates, etc! hahaha)

*to get well na so i can finally start going out! (hello Jess! hear me pleaaaase)
*nice big gold hoops
*silver flats
*white flats
*red flats (just those three colors okay?)
*lotsa dresses
*(if there's such a thing) a girlie hoodie, because i dont like the ones that make you look like youre a boy or a wannabe boy
*more pairs of going out shorts please.
*a yellow polka dot bikini (SERIOUSLY.)
*the betsey johnson kikay kit
*a massage somewhere
*plus a nice haircut
*more tops and bottoms for training
*a cool-looking water thingie for training as well haha
*a million hair ties because i lose one every time i train
*nice pair of tights
*tops with sleeves because most everything i own is sleeveless..
*pink and white LC bag that matches my wallet
*my own panda or polar bear haha
*ballet bag in Rustan's
*dicapac for kelly
*lomo
*peace of mind for the coming year
*... plus no more bad karma, crap or anything like the things i experienced this year okay? THANK YOU, JESS.

Currently feeling: blah

last, i swear.
POSTED AT 11:02 PM

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i realized that everytime i go online, i have a ritual. its clear, its easy. its not complicated like other things can sometimes be.

#1, multiply. #2, livejournal (to read my friends page). #3, my mail. #4, friendster. and when i have noteworthy things to blog about, tabulas comes in at #5.

when im not feeling anti-social, i log onto ym right after #1.

see? haha. and thats why i refuse to count myself among you facebook sheep, because that would mean extra, extra time online. which i dont need, believe me!

okay, im logging off now. i have tabulas-ed myself out today. whats sad is its all about the most random things hahaha

Currently feeling: stressed

i wish i could write like this..
POSTED AT 08:53 PM

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“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your life… you give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like ‘Maybe we should just be friends’ or ‘How perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt. A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.”

highschool days of long ago..
POSTED AT 02:21 PM

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i was reading my lj friends page, and ana (one of my truelight 7 babies) posted a copy of the hamlet 'to be or not to be' monologue. im guessing its for her classmates to memorize, and that its for shakespeare fest! oh my god, high school memories of all those choral recitations!! hahaha

i remember making all those steps (yes, we had choreography!), all those after-school practices that were never really utilized and we just ended up cramming anyway, fights that would break out between over-eager classmates and those that didnt want to even participate hahaha, and our no-fail costume that consisted of all black, or white shirts and black pants, or black shirts and jeans, etc. basta basic t-shirt lang, pwede na! oh god, highschool presentations.. all for the grade!

AND because i've always been one to ACTUALLY WANT to preserve memories like these, i have the videos (full videos pa! of all the sections! haha) of all the presentations we had in 4th year. pintasayawit, intrams cheering, shakes fest, etc. im serious. plus i even have our last hs fair performance preserved on vcd (so cool naman..) AND i also have the prom (yes, the prom!) on two discs. PATHETIC i know. but hey, memories are memories!

one day when i am bored, i will find the time to watch all these.

hey, why not now? haha, its not like i have anything better to do!!

Currently listening to: Flo Rida - Low
Currently feeling: bored

day 8.
POSTED AT 01:43 PM

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so, this time last wednesday i was just at home because we didnt have class in the morning, my training wasnt until 5pm, and so i was just relaxing and bumming around.

then in the afternoon, i went to school for my 3hour training and lifted, boosted and stunted my heart out. and it felt goooooood. then i stumbled home at around 10pm and my muscles were dying but i was still on an endorphin high.

damn what a difference a week makes.

**
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it.

its day 10!
POSTED AT 10:21 PM

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and you know what that means...

haha, im just trying to be all optimistic and thinking that it wont be long now, considering i've already reached the double digit days.

anything to get my mind off the fact that i was SUPPOSED to be out tonight. that i had three things planned. that i shouldve been all dressed up, drinking the night away with soooo many people...

oh, life.

'tis the season to be.. umm im not sure exactly
POSTED AT 05:22 PM

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merry christmas! <3, chickee :D

its day 14, friends.

watch out for my emancipation hahaha

think about it!
POSTED AT 09:08 PM

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if goofy is a dog and pluto is a dog as well, why can one speak and stand upright? and the other cant?

and why is one a main character while the other is just mickey's pet?

the year that was.
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