POSTED AT 08:34 AM

tums

its the start of another week and im all sneezy

im hoping this isnt an indication of how the week will turn out. just coz i feel lightheaded and matamlay and all that.

and it doesnt feel good :S

stupid tums also forgot to bring a jacket. keeping my fingers crossed that it doesnt rain and i dont freeze my butt off today.

because i didnt update last friday ;)
POSTED AT 10:12 AM

tums

no teapot today. goooooood. i think she'll be here tomorrow though, i think tuesdays mean she's designated here. daaaaaaym.

last friday was so much fun! i admit, i honestly thought it would be a drag just because i'd feel like an outsider amidst all the.. regular people. BUT it was really, really enjoy. i mean, easily the best day i've had here so far.

yup, the place was overrun by kiddies and a few yayas. speaking of kiddies, i have a new boyfriend! his name is jason and he's 4 years old. hahaha. i will post pictures on http://celineabello.multiply.com soon, i swear his eyes are to die for... kaka-inlove! haha

the day started with me volunteering to shift at the reg table, which was fun just coz i got to see everyone arrive/coming in. AND THEN, here was my panira moment of the day: i decided to pull out my cam and start taking pictures WHEN... my camera wouldnt start. and you know why?? because i left the batt at home!!!! the fully-charged batt!!! aaaaaaaah. STUPID, STUPID ME so there, i didnt get to take pictures of anything BUT the bright side is that, there were dslrs all around, which means i have pictures naman, i just dont have them with me. so yeah, its just a matter of tracking down who has the pictures of me at the reg table, and with clifford the big red dog (haha) and basta, all the other shots with me in it.

anyway, to make a long, eventful day short, i had a really good time  just thinking about that kiddie dance workshop is enough to make me smile, really. as well as the hilarious time i had stamping people at the popcorn booth, and the memory of my first kikiam tasting experience, and all those picture-perfect memories in between♥

good times, good times.

("That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they'd call them something else.")

POSTED AT 10:45 AM

tums

i think it was a bad idea to drink 'decolgen forte'. because now my head is getting heavier and heavier, and i feel like im gonna fall asleep any second now.

also, the cold here in the office isnt helping.

friends, please pray i dont start snoring away here in my cubicle. i think i'll die of embarassment if makatulog ako haha.

tuesday.
POSTED AT 08:52 AM

tums

last-5-days-countdown begins today.

i dont know whether to be happy or sad. honestly. its funny, when i started working, i couldnt wait for it to end. and now, im going back and forth between wanting to stay longer and just wanting it all to be over already.

factors. hahaha. i need kuwento time with my girls, i swear.

so happy to have received a LONG email from tessa, making kuwento a bit of her new york adventures. if there's one girl i missed the most, it would be her. then bianx. those two are just the ones i can bare my soul to, and not be afraid of being judged or misunderstood or whatever.

might be able to go out with loi and christine tomorrow night, that im excited for. i really, really missed my barkada, i cant even begin to describe how sad i am that the last time we saw each other was march! there goes my 'once a month get-together' plan

it looks like its gonna be a light day here at work, which is okay with me. im really not in the mood to be all responsible and creative and whatever. im hoping the day breezes by, coz im really looking forward to tonight! its true light 7's anniv celebration at leya's house, hopefully we'll at least be 75% complete. oh and dont worry, this time im A HUNDRED PERCENT SURE my camera's battery is present haha

*******

(its been a year since..)

POSTED AT 09:16 AM

tums

the day's looking goooooood.

its already 9:15 AND there are no signs of the teapot. yesssssssss

im hoping this means something. like i'll actually be able to get through one tuesday without hearing her nauseating, high-pitched voice.

or better yet, that my last 5 days here will be teapot-free.

AMEN.
POSTED AT 11:16 AM

tums

4 YEARS AGO:

http://tums.tabulas.com/2004/05/05/@259953/

words to live by
POSTED AT 12:58 PM

tums

“In the end, only three things matter:
how much you loved,
how gently you lived,
and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.”

POSTED AT 08:41 AM

tums

so the well thought of and carefully planned superheroes night i planned is now..

indiana jones-ish themed. because apparently, its more bagay to the over-all theme which is 'road to greatness'.

im so serious. its so corny (or at least, I find it corny) because the superheroes i pre-selected were really fun!! i mean, if I were one of the participants, i'd want to come to the party and dress up. and go all out and bongga, i mean, with the costume for my character, and the hair, and the make-up, etc.

BUT NO. now, theyre all gonna be dressed in icky khakis and white shirts and those passe hats that will mess up their hair. and because the theme is so generic and whatever, theyre all gonna look alike! i mean, lets face it. you cant really spruce up an outfit that consists of... such plain garb. okay, granted, theyre all adults and the superhero theme may have been too much for them. but hey, i didnt come up with that idea! i just researched the characters, and fixed the room design, and came up with the activities.

which i guess were all for naught, because now the theme for the night is something totally different. okaaaaaaay.

ohwell. thats life. plans change and people's minds change. haha. chalk it up to another important ojt lesson!

but the superhero themed party REALLY wouldve been enjoy. i even researched on specific characters, so that there wouldnt be doubles and everyone would come prepared and all. of course there were dinky characters like she hulk (whut?), hawk girl and the female power rangers but there were also cool ones like princess leia, queen amidala and chun-li.

now, the only interesting person to go as would be lara croft. which isnt even really spectacular. unless you go dressed in her little outfit with the hot pants, now THAT would be cool

(SUPER.)

pardon the sabaw entry, i have the worst cold today :S
POSTED AT 09:04 AM

tums

its already the middle of the week.. meaning there are 2 (not counting today) work days left, and another 1 to go next week.

the days are winding down. pretty soon, i'll be going back to my wyeth-less, chino roces street-less, fx to glorietta-less life. haha.

the bad thing about routine is the boredom that accompanies the actions that seem mechanical at times. the good thing is that at least you know what you'll be doing at any given time, and that youre assured you'll be doing something, anything.

im sad that its all gonna end soon, just because i think i'll miss the people here. the environment. and yes, even the routine. BUT im also excited because over the past couple of weeks, i havent had time to relax and just bum. i havent had time to REALLY go out. and, i havent had quality time with my loooovies.

SO. bottom line, i guess is: all good things must come to an end. bow.

moving on...

yesterday afternoon-last night was goooooood after work yesterday, i got to walk around glorietta and window-shop, spotting things i will be buying soon (hint hint) or asking for (another hint hint). I WAS IN BAG HEAVEN. im lusting after a black clutch and a white bag at The Ramp. oh, and i found a new store!! so its not really new, more like new-found. which is strange coz glorietta is my second home and i've NEVER seen it before. its called Forward and Scoop, and all the bags are to-die-for. theyre also waaaaaaay outof my price range. BUT! the good news is that.. my birthday's coming up in about a month. so... HELLO FRIENDS, FAMILY, LOVED ONES haha

then at night was the truelight 7 anniv dinner at leya's! awwwww, can i just say how much i love my babies? i feel so lucky that of all the people in this world that i could have gotten, they were the ones who joined batch 7. it was great to finally be able to catch up on their lives and lovelives haha. and since majority of them (okay, all except noelle) are incoming college freshmen, naturally the topic of the night was college. theyre so cute, they all had exciting kuwentos to share about reg, and their blockmates, etc. and they had scandalous chismis too.. hmm. freshman year of college seems soooooo long ago, haha. anyway, there. i had a really good night. the food was so yummy (and too much! we didnt even eat half of it!), the place was super nice, and i loved our kuwentos. i love my babies! i have the sweetest kids EVER  cant wait till we all get together again.

oh and tims? (since i know you'll be reading this) true light 7 memorabilia is on its way. wait for it. haha

homaygod.
POSTED AT 08:55 AM

tums

THE TEAPOT IS HERE.

looks like its gonna be a looooooooong day

last three days begin today.

POSTED AT 09:07 AM

tums

would you believe i slept from 9pm last night to 6:40am today?? damn. i came home yesterday with a fever and cold, drugged myself (with tempra and decolgen haha) to feel better, and woke up this morning with my fever gone... and my cold still present. so, am i so immune na to all types of cold tablets?

so, in my almost 10 hours of sleep, i kept waking up and tossing and turning. and what was so disturbing was, i had that dream again. okay, so its not really a recurring dream coz the settings and situations change.. more like, a recurring character? what does that mean?? i've been dreaming of the same person for around a week now. this all started last friday, i think. help!

on the work front, its been hectic here, with a few lulls in between meetings and whatever. im really just enjoying relishing my last few days, whatever that means. i mean, im making the most out of being with the people here, and learning, observing, etc.

satc love
POSTED AT 09:34 AM

tums

("I will love you forever, Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours.")

POSTED AT 04:16 PM

tums

i dont know if the teapot was tolerable today just because:

a)she wasnt really that noisy and/or visible

or

b)her pacute tactics didnt seem to be working

needless to say, my day was fiiiiine. not bad, not great either. oh but dyahe moments were present, sure. among other things (moments?).

god, im so out of it. i wonder if its because of the freezing temp here, or my going-on-4-days cold. or the fact that the hoodie im wearing is doing everything EXCEPT keep me warm. tums needs/wants a big huuuuuuuug. hayayay. 45 minutes to go. then, the last-two-days-countdown begins.

no plans yet for the weekend. hi, people text me haha

44 minutes now.

friday = love.
POSTED AT 08:45 AM

tums

all it took was 1 neozep to do the things 3 decolgens failed to accomplish.

that is, to rid me of my runny nose, headache, and semi-sorta fever.

so, after four days, tums is semi-normal again. or, as normal as i can possibly be haha.

its my second to the last day here and the morning is off to a slow start. its funny how things pick up around 2 hours into the work day, which sort of makes one think that it isnt really necessary to exert the extra effort and come to work early. BUUUUT, hello. im just a trainee and i guess one has to pay their dues right?

i wonder what today will bring. as i said, its my second to the last day. i've been waiting for a sign, any sign that will point me to the right direction. so far, it hasnt come yet oh well. two more days, who knows what can will happen.

so far, still no plans for the weekend. which is fine by me, im in need of quality time with my bed (im so sleep deprived, its not even funny), the computer (multiply), and the tv (i miss watching mindless shows).

hopefully, next week's plans with my barkada push through. i miss them loads, it seems like forever since we've all seen each other also, the ctk08 reunion/4th year anniv celebration is set for next weekend, so im hoping that's tuloy as well. i miss all my days kids and its really nakakaguilty that i havent spent as much time with them as i would have wanted to, these past years. especially my ctk babies, just because theyre really the ones i was close to for the first couple of months, up to like the first year. then college took over and i neglected my mother duties, i guess. with my acollege kids naman, sure i used to see them alot around school and whatever but we didnt really get to super bond, you know what i mean? hay. guilt trip starts here. thankfully, our anniversaries are coming up so at least we can all get together for that

(dilemma.)

random thoughts
POSTED AT 11:47 AM

tums

bored and freezing my butt off.

lunch in 15 minutes.

tums is confused.

thank you tessa, xtine and bianx for the advice.

what do closed doors mean..

tums is hungry.

how will this week end?

how will all this end?

damn.
POSTED AT 01:39 PM

tums

i think i may have gotten my sign.

last for the day, i promise.
POSTED AT 02:10 PM

tums

it seems like fridays are my days. or the past few fridays, at least. i love it. tgif never seemed more true.

its my dada's birthday today! doña elisa abello wouldve been 103+. i miss going to her house in m.paterno, and looking at all the porcelain dolls, and playing hide and seek in the over 15 rooms, and running around in the garden. i miss her staring at me (because apparently i look exactly like my lolo), and looking at her wigs that she would put on everyday, just because she's extremely vain like that. so, may pinagmanahan pala ako.

im so full, its not even funny. chinese food is looooove. that was a really good lunch

im predicting the afternoon's gonna breeze by and you know what? im gonna be smiling all the way through..

LSS FOR THE DAY
--
I'm here when will you make your move?
I see you, I am me, I want cha, why don't cha
Come to me, I can be, what you need, uh baby
I'm standing, been waiting, I'm yearning, I'm burning
Get to know me, come and get to know me
Come to show me, that you wanna know me

what happens next?
POSTED AT 09:58 PM

tums

the long weekend ends today. i had a pretty good one, considering the past two days were all about shopping (oh yes. tums is now addicted to Celine handbags AND those bargain plain tops i found at my new secret, favorite shop!), eating (finally tried the Angus burger at Burger King, plus Pepper Lunch at Powerplant), and couch potato-ing (hello, so you think you can dance and kasal, kasali, kasalo haha).

tomorrow is my LAST DAY at wyeth. wow. that went by in a blur. im hoping tomorrow will be.. good. memorable. fun. something, im not sure what exactly. im just hoping that it'll be anything BUT normal, i guess. i want something eventful to happen. okay, maybe not. haha. hay, i dont know.

barkada dinner tomorrow night not tuloy. again friends, im seriously sad na. our yahoo group is not enough, im telling you.

POSTED AT 08:59 AM

tums

8 hours and counting.

not a really good start to my last day. oh well, it can only get better right?

on the bright side, im enjoying a teapot-free day. guess there are things to be thankful for

wonder if any of this is true...
POSTED AT 09:28 AM

tums

keeping myself entertained through:

chikatime

haha.

POSTED AT 10:26 AM

tums

you know how i said that things are bound to get better? i mean, as the day progresses?

it just went from bad to worse. like, in a span of ten minutes.

i feel so freaking... stupid.

and here i thought today was gonna be the last.

POSTED AT 01:09 PM

tums

lunch was EXACTLY what i needed to make it all better you always know how to make me smile again, chubs. thank you!

my horoscope for the day.
POSTED AT 03:24 PM

tums

Cancer 6/22 – 7/22

Despite the fact that you'll receive good news, it's not a good day to celebrate.

what good news???? WHAT, WHAT????!!!

amen to it not being a good day to celebrate.

POSTED AT 08:22 AM

tums

2 truths and a lie --

1. I'm sad because it seems today will be.. VERY disappointing.
2. I'm at Wyeth right now.
3. I didn't have breakfast and my tummy's grumbling.

**

Yesterday's MCS field trip was hilarious. between riding the jeep and not knowing when and where to get down, to finally meeting Trixie's loveydovey, to getting hilo from ALL THOSE dvds, to spotting certain titles such as 'The Kristine Hermosa Scandal' and 'I Really Hate My Job', to fx bonding with Tims, and to finally getting home at 8:30 thanks to the Makati traffic that never seems to die down (diminish? dissolve?). that was FUN. more MCS trips!!! i cant wait to watch my old-school Disney movies dvd. tonight/tomorrow, promise.

i technically have 4 days of break left (not counting today) and it looks like i wont really have that much downtime. tomorrow is my mother-daughter bonding/shopping day, friday is reg, saturday is shopping with pocholo and the ctk08 dinner, and sunday is.. basta yun. haha. oh well.

bianca pedrosa is coming home on the 27th!! i cant wait girlies, this is it okay? no more excuses. oh what, batangas? la union? baguio? haha let me know!!

**

i cant even comprehend how insensitive people can get. i guess THIS is my sign, huh? i cant believe i even considered giving you a chance.

POSTED AT 02:22 PM

tums

(picture of the day.)

**
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury or wear as jewelry, which ever you prefer.

POSTED AT 09:17 PM

tums

THAT'S THAT, i guess.

tttttthursday.
POSTED AT 08:44 AM

tums

you know your day is off to a good start when you get up as opposed to are waken up by the alarm that doesnt go off no matter how many times you put it on snooze. no work today, hooray. no more wyeth ever, ummm semi-hooray? haha. uyyyy, namimiss na...

i loved it that last night i was just so RELAXED. i multiply-ed, friendster-ed, kicked back, chiiiiiiiiiilled, and watched my new Disney compilation dvd!

in fairness for an MCS purchase, the copy is clear ha. and all of the titles work! being a very, very paranoid shopper, i anticipated minimal/marginal error (say whut?) wahaha. so, does this mean we're gonna go back for more dvds? im game  

so there I was watching Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast and thinking to myself, 'why cant life be more like how it is in Disney movies?' Where everything is always light and breeeeezy, and people hardly quarrel (okay so sometimes they get into full scale 'i will kill you now' moments but thats only limited to around one per movie). where nothing is ever malicious (hello, Ariel loses her fins, gains legs and has nothing covering her lower body and STILL eric doesnt go all manyak mode on her), nothing is ever ugly (face it, even The Beast has his appeal), and people are always well-dressed, no matter what location they're in (ariel and eric go on a lagoon boat ride. if i were gonna go on a lagoon boat ride, i'd totally be dressed in puwede ito mabasa clothes. not hello, i am ready for our first kiss clothes!)

and why can't we just break into song whenever we're feeling extremely happy, extremely sad, confused, guilty, afraid, excited or even when we're  blissfully in love? why do Disney characters always seem to know how to PERFECTLY put into song what theyre feeling?

why am i obsessing? hahaha  

just had to share
POSTED AT 07:41 PM

tums

so. caught up with a friend today and here's the gist of what we talked about.

girl was talking to this guy that she's really interested in. it was raining and she was on her way home. guy offers her a ride. she gets all hiya, and says no. GUY DOESNT ASK AGAIN. so girl goes on her way, and yes gets somewhat drenched in the process. oh and needless to say, is so turned off by the guy's i-don't-care attitude.

MORAL OF THE STORY: if and when you offer someone a ride, keep in mind that the person's first reaction will be refusal, naturally. what you do is ask again. you dont give the person a chance to say no. sheesh.

guess there's a shortage of gentlemen these days.

so thesis, here we are again.
POSTED AT 03:30 PM

tums

i still cant get my mind around the fact that i go back to ac on monday. my over one month stay at wyeth has made me feel like im already past the 'student phase' (sorry na haha). oh well. this is reality, and i'll take it. ONE FREAKING SEM, BAAAAABY.

(on my wyeth experience.)

its back to school on monday and who knows what my last sem's gonna be like? all i know is its gonna be a blast knowing that i still have time to just enjoy being a student, to reap the benefits of still being dependent, and to relish (relish! haha) what little moments i have left at ac.

POSTED AT 08:04 PM

tums

got to believe is on cinema one!! aaaaaah

oh rico yan. if only all guys can be like youuuuuu.

i love the part when they kiss for the first time and there's all this sexual tension, and also when claudine goes to confront him and rico refuses to admit that he likes her. and vhong navarro! i love you if only for the comic relief that you bring

this is one pinoy movie i can watch over and over, and never get tired of.

of summers past and present.
POSTED AT 09:28 AM

tums

my summer vacation is coming to an end and i have nothing left to say except: i REALLY think that if you want to know how my year has been, just ask me how my summer was. thats the best indication of whether my year's been good or bad.

the earliest, most vivid summer (at least as far back as i can remember) would be the summer of 2001. anything before that and for some reason, my mind draws a blank. is this early onset alzheimers?? god i hope not.

(summer sunshine.)

summer 2008 entry coming tomorrow. who knows what the next 6 months of the year will bring right? fingers crossed that my good year stays.... GOOOOOOD. or yeah, gets even better.

summer days drifting away..
POSTED AT 09:31 AM

tums

today marks the end of summer. i mean, the real end. another school year starts tomorrow, my last semester to be exact. i'm a hop, skip and jump away from leaving my assumption life behind and REALLY going out into the real world.

but before all that, here's a tribute to the summer that was. it wasnt THE BEST summer (summer 2004 still holds that honor), but it was definitely a really good one. i feel like i deserved a good march-april-may this year, and i think i more or less got it

(summer lovin' had me a blast.) 

i love weekends :)
POSTED AT 10:50 AM

tums

this weekend definitely, SUPER made me happy it was such a great end to a fantastic summer and im so glad i spent it with people i love.

sbarro last friday, first shopping installment at trinoma, MAJOR SHOPPING at greenhills and eastwood, krispy kreme, dinner with my ctk08 kids, KUNG FU PANDA was really the funniest (so glad we watched it), quality time with my baby ♥

i wish all weekends could always be this good.

im so excited for the next couple of weeks. my birthday's coming up! in about a month. cant wait to turn 22. and to turn 4 too

tums is obsessing.
POSTED AT 07:36 PM

tums

friends, i think i want to have a tattoo done.

seriously.

(i've been thinking..)

happy father's day?
POSTED AT 10:03 PM

tums

countdown begins.. today? or tomorrow. damn, im confused.
POSTED AT 09:42 PM

tums

the 20th is a month away. you know what that means people! you have 30 days left to plan whatever surprises you have in store for meeeeeee! (sorry na, ang kapal)

(updated (071508) birthday wishlist!)

its been a good first week back, considering i barely have to be in school coz my schedule is so light. free days, baaaaaby :D thats what im talking about! of course, its supposed to be going to thesis work and all that, but since its the first week palang naman, of course its going to beauty rest haha.

ac 2004 high school reunion this weekend! damn we're all excited, its crazy. some of these girls i havent seen since graduation!! cant wait and my barkada is getting together too! woot woot. looks like the next few days are gonna be F-U-N!

get your butt back on philippine soil, bianx.

i cant wait to see my girlies

POSTED AT 12:12 PM

tums

i LOVE the rainy season because despite the floods, and the struggle of wearing nice shoes out (for fear that it'll get destroyed), and the hassle of running in the rain, and my personal pet peeve: getting my fingers pinched when you close the umbrella, and the occasional damp, musty smell that comes from everywhere..

there are also no class days, and it feels great to lie in bed with the blanket wrapped tightly around you, and the sound of rain is sooooo soothing, and of course the number one reason: it's cuddle weather.

LOOOOOOOVE ♥

pissed off.
POSTED AT 10:57 AM

tums

this sucks just because i woke up so happy and high (from last night) and then i hear about this.

if youre gonna be a total WHINER and bitch about something/an issue to other people, make sure that issue is something worth bitching about. dont be petty and stupid and shallow and use something like non-attendance as a pathetic excuse for you to destroy someone's character and credibility. frankly, i doubt people even really listen to you. heck i know i dont. so shut the fuck up.

this is so not about me, but im taking it personally because youre attacking a person i love. dont push me because konti nalang talaga, ako na kakausap sa iyo. and im freaking serious when i say, you dont know how nasty i can get. especially when it comes to defending this person.

how can you call yourself a Christian and a Dazer and then go around talking and backstabbing others? im not saying im perfect, but i have the decency to at least avoid the people i extremely dislike. i dont pretend everything's fine when im around them, i dont greet them and i definitely dont text them acting like we're still chummy-chummy with each other.

DON'T PUSH ME. one more and you're gonna get it, believe me.

 

**sorry, im really not the type to fight people on my blog (or even to curse), i dont even like writing about issues and whatever! i prefer to keep it happy and light. BUT sobra na talaga. this has gone on long enough.

of high school reunions, much-needed girl talk and quality time with my looooooves.
POSTED AT 11:26 AM

tums

i had a really, really good time last night before, i seriously thought high school reunions were a joke. BUT it turned out to be a really good evening spent with people i've known since we were kids.

it was really high school all over again. absolutely nothing has changed, we all just have better fashion sense, better hair, more digital cameras and loads of kuwento.

i loved that everyone was mingling, and catching up, and that i got to see people i havent seen in the longest time. we should do this more often girls!!

(some pictures.) 

POSTED AT 06:24 PM

tums

i got to catch the Tony Awards on velvet yesterday and i was soooo happy. tums' simple joys haha i love musicals. yes i cant sing to save my life (but im not as tone deaf as tims or karla, please lang), but i love everything about musicals. i love the costumes, and the sets, and the lyrics, and of course, the choreography. i remember watching Miss Saigon and certain numbers such as 'The Morning Of The Dragon' and 'The Heat Is On In Saigon' blew my mind, just because the dancers were so galing and so ma-impact.

in 1st and 2nd year highschool, for some reason my barkada was so obsessed with musicals. we would belt out miss saigon and les mis and phantom during recess and lunch, and we practically memorized all the songs! that was fun oh and take note, we werent (and still arent) great singers so you can imagine how we sounded. kryng i think was the only one who could actually sing among all of us haha.

anyway, the Tony Awards featured performances from new broadway musicals like little mermaid (which was strange, i swear), a remake of rent (galing, galing) and a remake of grease the musical (which was AMAZING).

i really wish i knew how to sing. if i have one major frustration, its that. okay, maybe a bigger frustration would be that i look young for my age. labo. okay, im getting sabaw. maybe coz of the weather?

tomorrow seems... promising. lets wait and see.

yes yes, i know. disappointment comes from failed expectations hahahaha. 

POSTED AT 11:21 PM

tums

i freaking heard my first christmas carol today. make that, as in like right now. its still playing. and its the carpenters. oh my.

POSTED AT 10:58 PM

tums

so. today was really bad. oh and lets not forget disappointing. would it have killed you to see me for even just a minute??

it was the type of day that you just want to fast forward and get over with. or in my case, the type that you just want to sleep through. which is exactly what i did the minute i got home.

no more days like these, please? 

POSTED AT 06:39 PM

tums

these past couple of days have been THE WORST but if there’s one thing i've learned, its that there’s always something to be thankful for. ALWAYS.

so to pocholo, my barkada, and my true light 7 babies: i love you guys. you're all there, and thats all i need to know. thank you, thank you ♥

the moment passed me by.
POSTED AT 11:15 PM

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i was called a chicken AND a weakling today and maybe i am. because i had the chance to say EXACTLY how i felt (and i didnt), and i chose to act nonchalant and unaffected (when i was the exact opposite).

so, i guess the expression that's that is officially in effect today. because just like i always do, i let the perfect moment pass me by.

because i loved 'The Holiday' and i love this quote (which i stole from someone's blog) even if i totally can't relate to it.
POSTED AT 06:18 PM

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"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

POSTED AT 08:48 PM

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the emotional rollercoaster that life is taking me for a ride on has got me all.. mood swing-y. could just i be hormonally whacked or something? because one minute im down, and the next im excited, and then i get all anxious, and then my mood swings to... happy.

hayayay.

i had a semi-crappy, semi-happy weekend. the former thanks to... certain things/people and the latter thanks to an afternoon spent with my barkada (last friday), my greenhills adventure with pocholo (yesterday), and his visit complete with chocolate donuts (just this afternoon).

im really hoping this funk that im in ends soon. happy thoughts, happy thoughts.